That’s Not My Final Destination
I’M SUCH AN IDIOT
Sometimes I make mistakes
I AM LAZY AND PATHETIC
I could use support identifying and healing the source of my fatigue
I AM WEAK WILLED AND WILL NEVER FIGURE OUT THIS HEALTHY EATING THING
I haven’t addressed the deeper things that drive me to continue to make choices outside of my healthy vision
Have you found yourself saying the capitalized phrases to yourself? It might be because you’ve been wired for shame.
At least, that’s the case for me. Thankfully, that’s not my final destination.
I was thinking about what I’m struggling with most right now - my patience and ability to adapt.
Rhys has taken a turn on how easy he’s been to put down for naps and bed. Typically when I’m putting him down I’m thinking about what I’ll do right after - how I’ll satisfy my hunger, how fresh I’ll feel after showering, or how accomplished I’ll be when I knock off a couple things from my to do list.
When he ends up taking 45min-1 hour to put down, I turn into this impatient monster mom who I DO NOT like.
Example from today: I threatened to burn a nutcracker doll because Rhys, instead of settling to go to sleep, kept pointing and saying “guy! Guy! Guy!” (his name for all little figurines) repeatedly and more urgently for what felt like forever.
Afterwards, I felt terrible.
I’m thankful, though, for God’s grace.
I heard the whisper, “I died for you, even for your monster mom moments you struggle to forgive. Don’t quit because you aren’t there yet. This is the work of the journey."
This applies to our health journeys as well.
Just because you continue to struggle to make the healthy choices you want does not mean that your efforts to learn and grow from those situations aren’t moving you forward.
Own what’s true - they are.
My encouragement today?
Silence shame and listen in for those words of grace!
Do you feel stuck?
Send me an email and we can talk about it!